Social Blues

For last 4 years I have struggled with confidence. The first time I discovered my issue was in eighth grade. It all started toward the end of seventh grade, I had not been getting the best grades that I could of and I also was extremely talkative, in other words the center of attention. Of course after receiving three quarters of bad grades, of which was never failing, my parents were fed up and told me to buck up. So after that I vowed to get my act together and get the best grades that I can possible get. However, from that point on I have achieved excellent grades but all at the expense of being social. This slowed my development of confidence in me. It wasn't until very late in my junior year that I started to really struggle with my lack of confidence, but it was also at that time that I began to get more confident in myself.

In present time my issue with confidence is still a work in progress. So I really can only say what I'm currently doing to overcome and beat my issue with confidence. Lack of confidence is something people can spend their entire life trying to obtain due to the fact that it is a mental thing not physical. Since confidence is mental there are only a few things I can do on my own without counseling, which in my case it’s not serious enough for that. The first of three things that I'm currently doing is trying to take any and all opportunities to talk to a person that I don't know well and try to start up a conversation and to keep it going as long as I can. The second thing I'm trying to do is constantly remind myself that those so called popular people who judge will never know or even see me really after High School is over; nor will they likely go anywhere in their lives like I will. The third and final thing I try to do is to never let anyone tell me that my goals, dreams, and ideas are anything less than I think they are.

When the overcoming of an issue is still a work in progress you get the opportunity to know at that very moment the feelings of knowing that you are making progress in bettering yourself and you get to know that in the end you will feel the impending feelings of accomplishment. Until those days all I can do is reflect on what I have already felt. In a nutshell I have experienced the happiness of gaining friends, becoming close to friends, doing better quality work in my classes, and the gaining of greater responsibilities.

Though my issue with confidence is still progressing I have learned that people always tell you it’s all just in your head and you just can't pay it any mind. Well, all I have to say is that "It's easier said than done.''